.PROFILE.
Kayumi Hirai

The Dark Angel
Umm, hi.
I know I'm not your idea of a typical 14-year-old girl. My birthday's on 9th February, and I happen to like that date a lot. I share my birthday & birthday month with very awesome people.
I have a thing for heavy music, I love J-Rock and heavy metal. I adore the Visual Kei scene.
I'm an otaku. I spend my days rotting at the computer gawking at anime, manga, music and whatnot.
I'm weird. I tend to like dark and depressing things. It doesn't make me emo or suicidal. People do have their dark moments.
If you're easily offended by gay things, this might not be the right place for you. I love yaoi and you can't change that.
Interesting guitar riffs and shredding are my weakness. You might think guitar's my specialty, but it isn't. I do play acoustic and electric guitar, but piano's what I major in. I play the Guzheng a little too.
And that's about all I have to say about me.

傷付けた後でしか 気付けなかった事
過ちの数 君を求め 見め合えたはずさ
I only realized after hurting you, that I was counting the number of flaws you had when we should have looked at each other.

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.MUSIC.
hear you sing


MusicPlaylist
Music Playlist at MixPod.com

.MOOD.
mind twist

This girl is forever random. She might sometimes suffer from moodswings, but most of the time she's feeling... happy? I don't know.
She likes to be called goth and not emo.
She is all for gay.
She has somehow developed a glasses fetish from staring at the picture up there.
When she's feeling sad, she'll go ranting about things and sound like a philosopher.
She is a narcissist.
Red, black and purple are the colours to describe her mood.

.THESE WORDS.
talk to me

.PAST.
reverse time

- June 2008 - July 2008 - August 2008 - September 2008 - November 2008 - January 2009 - February 2009 - July 2009 - August 2009 - September 2009 - October 2009 - November 2009 - January 2010 - February 2010 - March 2010 - April 2010 - May 2010 - June 2010 - July 2010 - August 2010 - September 2010 - October 2010 - November 2010 - December 2010 - January 2011 - February 2011 - March 2011 - April 2011 - May 2011 - June 2011 - July 2011 - August 2011 - November 2011 - April 2014

.CREDIT.
making of

AkamatsuA

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Monday, November 7, 2011
-I'm back. Again.- 6:47 PM

Hello everyone. I'm back again.
I know I have not posted anything for ages.
If you're still reading this, I thank you from the bottom of my heart, whoever you are.
I really feel touched to know that there are people who care.
Thanks for taking the time to even check my blog, knowing there might not be a new post.

It seems that nowadays when I post something it means that there's something wrong with me.

It's the holidays now, do you wanna know what I'm up to? Sure.
This Thursday morning I have to attend a rehearsal for an upcoming performance that I've been awaiting since last year. We've been really busy, and we've only actually got something done last week. The sad case of my band and I.
In the afternoon I have choir practice, nothing special, though I have missed all of 3 practices thanks to my 5 continuous days of intensive practice for the choral festival. This means a lot to catch up on, but this is probably the last thing on my mind.
Afterwards, my good friends from choir are going to sort out a Canon remix at my house. This has been thought of for quite long, and I've recorded some GarageBand stuff, but honestly, I've done shit for it. I'm really sorry for my friends.

The worst thing is that I have this terrarium project that has been initiated by my friends earlier this year, and there was quite some hype about it, unfortunately the workshop we've been eager to conduct has been put off so many times by - yes, procrastination, and the terrarium is currently dying. In fact, new plants have been planted already. But the problem here is that my dear teacher wants us to conduct the workshop on Thursday at the same time as my choir practice and well, I'm really at a loss as to what to do. She clearly told us it would be on Wednesday. I don't see how all this confusion came about, but very unfortunately for me to say, my friend hasn't really been taking the initiative to inquire herself and I've been given the responsibility to settle everything.
Well, I really have no idea what on earth to do to settle this mess.
And I don't actually blame my friend either, I'm really a big fuck up. I have no fucking idea what to do anymore.
I really wouldn't mind if someone knocked me out at this moment, thinking about all this is utterly unbearable. I don't want to think about it, but I contradict myself. I am an ironic wreck.

And the day I really dread - 18th of November. It's the day after the closing gala of the choral festival, yeah yeah. That's nothing. That morning I'd have to get my ass to choir practice. Typical morning again. But what's really bugging me is that after that I'd have to rush to my guitar exam. Literally rushing. I can't even go home to practice okay.
And you'd think I'd have a breather during the evening.
No, no, no.
Remember what I mentioned earlier? A concert?
Yep that's the last day of primary school, I have to give the performance we've promised, oh yeah.
I think we're just gonna wing it. Seriously. I have to admit though, we indeed put in quite some effort for this. We have the motivation, the drive to do this, a purpose, but what's obstructing us is time. Oh time, have mercy on us.
Being the insane freaks we are, we decided to do a "band camp" on the spot, realizing the fact that we have zero fucking common free dates. So yeah, last night my baby and my good ol' pal had a sleepover. Just on a whim. Purpose - to save just COMMUTING time.

Now let me stay off the painful, annoying things and rant about something interesting. Well, at least interesting to me.

A Piece of Band Life:

Alright, I shall talk about being in a band for a bit now.

1. Let me clear this misconception. Being in a band, a fucking rock band by the way, not those faggoty boy bands/bimbotic girl groups no no no, is not just about the sex, drugs & rock 'n' roll. Oh yes you need the groove but seriously, if you're forming a band the main purpose should not be fame. 'Cuz that will get you a bucketful of self-indulgence and in reality, nowhere.
A band is about almost 100% effort and commitment. If you can't give, you leave. The fun can wait. The three of us girls, we started a humble cover band last year. We had big dreams, but now we're still pretty much a cover band. I'd dare say we improved a lot, but this is really because we put in effort to nurture the band and we go through all kinds of trouble.
We now take the initiative to do things such as propose daring ideas to organizations, namely our primary school. We try to get other musicians involved to and publicize as much as we can. Yep we've now matured. Glad to say that yesterday we actually broke down the songs into parts and drilled them until they were good enough.

2. When you're in a band, what really keeps you going is chemistry. You need chemistry, you can't evade it, you can't lack it. You really need to build rapport with your bandmates. I realized through playing in groups (choir is also a group affair, not only my cover band... simple collaborations also count) that you really need to depend on each other. It is so important to listen to one another, make sure you don't completely drown out the others, and not only that, sometimes you depend on each other just to remember the song and pull off a great set. That's what we did yesterday. It's all about helping each other. Guess we got a head-start since we have been the best of friends forever. Just gonna give you an example of THROAM since I've been reading it recently (guilty pleasure haha), you know when dirty secrets get exposed between bandmates and they squabble over shit, that's the time a band falls apart. And they kinda did. Hehe.

3. Things always don't go as planned. This is very true. You know, we got all hyped up when we found out we were getting a vocalist, and we wanted to meet her (plus her bf) at STGCC, but she fucking bailed. It was so late, and she didn't clarify things properly, and we gave up. Enough of waiting. We just left, and I haven't heard of her ever since. So much excitement over nothing, really. Another example: we planned a large-scale event in order to accumulate huge amounts of CIP hours for ourselves, but it got down-sized to a freaking one item performance by the "IJ Alumni Band". Yep. You see where we're going.

4. Starting a band is an extremely money-draining thing. I swear, everything about music is expensive. Allow me to let you in on how much I've spent, okay? My Syn guitar is 1.2k, my initial amp was a hundred bucks, quite all right, but I upgraded it. And my lovely Laney costs a thousand dollars. Kudos to me. Moreover, before my Laney I bought a Pearl drum set. It costs $1000+, cost inclusive of the Sabian cymbals bought separately. Oh yes, my Boss distortion pedal costs less than a hundred. Oh the pains. Basically to form a band you need to be either a) rich or b) sell-outs. Hah.

I'm now running out of ideas and I have work to do, so...
SEE YOU ALL

Can I trust you to support my performances? ;)