.PROFILE.
Kayumi Hirai

The Dark Angel
Umm, hi.
I know I'm not your idea of a typical 14-year-old girl. My birthday's on 9th February, and I happen to like that date a lot. I share my birthday & birthday month with very awesome people.
I have a thing for heavy music, I love J-Rock and heavy metal. I adore the Visual Kei scene.
I'm an otaku. I spend my days rotting at the computer gawking at anime, manga, music and whatnot.
I'm weird. I tend to like dark and depressing things. It doesn't make me emo or suicidal. People do have their dark moments.
If you're easily offended by gay things, this might not be the right place for you. I love yaoi and you can't change that.
Interesting guitar riffs and shredding are my weakness. You might think guitar's my specialty, but it isn't. I do play acoustic and electric guitar, but piano's what I major in. I play the Guzheng a little too.
And that's about all I have to say about me.

傷付けた後でしか 気付けなかった事
過ちの数 君を求め 見め合えたはずさ
I only realized after hurting you, that I was counting the number of flaws you had when we should have looked at each other.

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.MUSIC.
hear you sing


MusicPlaylist
Music Playlist at MixPod.com

.MOOD.
mind twist

This girl is forever random. She might sometimes suffer from moodswings, but most of the time she's feeling... happy? I don't know.
She likes to be called goth and not emo.
She is all for gay.
She has somehow developed a glasses fetish from staring at the picture up there.
When she's feeling sad, she'll go ranting about things and sound like a philosopher.
She is a narcissist.
Red, black and purple are the colours to describe her mood.

.THESE WORDS.
talk to me

.PAST.
reverse time

- June 2008 - July 2008 - August 2008 - September 2008 - November 2008 - January 2009 - February 2009 - July 2009 - August 2009 - September 2009 - October 2009 - November 2009 - January 2010 - February 2010 - March 2010 - April 2010 - May 2010 - June 2010 - July 2010 - August 2010 - September 2010 - October 2010 - November 2010 - December 2010 - January 2011 - February 2011 - March 2011 - April 2011 - May 2011 - June 2011 - July 2011 - August 2011 - November 2011 - April 2014

.CREDIT.
making of

AkamatsuA

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I have given up on designing my own skins, so a big thank you to the designer! =D Hearts!

Tuesday, July 28, 2009
-You can never have too much yaoi...- 9:46 PM

Hehheh, you can never have too much yaoi...
So addicting.
Some anime/manga I recommend:
Clannad - It's funny. And it's also very touching. I have no clue who I want Okazaki to end up with, but definitely not Sunohara, even though I'm a yaoi fan. I'd prefer the girls like Nagisa and Kotomi, maybe Kyou? Her twin sister Ryou is annoying, I hate this sort of girly characters in anime. They really piss me off cuz' they always need to be helped. And they don't take the initiative.
But if you watch Clannad ~After Story~ it's almost certain that Okazaki'll be with Nagisa.

[switch] - I recommend the manga. It's by Naked Ape. It's about the Matori, the drugs police. It's really cool. Hal x Kai! (Yes, it's another shounen-ai pair...There are some hints actually.) The anime is not as good...You don't get much of the action, and you can only watch the RAWs with Jap. subtitles like I did, and I can tell you it's kinda boring. Hal is not as hot as in the manga. Damn, why does all manga by Naked Ape have to be liscensed?! Guess I'll have to search everywhere again. This manga can be compared to the standard of Death Note as well. The plot is definitely NOT weak.

DOLLS - It's a manga. Also by Naked Ape (seems to have been dropped by scanlation groups). It's quite cool, but compared to [switch], the plot is quite weak. However, we have not really seen anything yet.. It's about a department which does special executions, called the Tokkei. They kill you right on the spot. Pairing I support: Shouta x Seiju

Trinity Blood - Well I'd say it's pretty good, but still not up to Hellsing standard. The characters are pretty much the same as that of Hellsing. However, the plot is not straightforward enough. A little bit too draggy for my tastes.

Well that's about all I'm going to criticize, hope you have enjoyed it...
My teacher gave me a piano piece called "River flows in you" by Yiruma. It's a really beautiful piece. She said my sight-reading was good...So happy...

Ahh, I can't wait for Reborn 144 to come out...Preview I was like squealing. Actually, for the whole episode.
OMG, Tsuna was seen at Hibari's window! That's shocking! Why would he climb up? My take is: He wants to inform Hibari about the trials. (This is only my guess,don't take it for real.) Nya~ I miss Hibari's "I'll bite you to death."
That's so...
arousing.
Like he was going to rape Tsuna everytime he sees him.
Gyabo.

GAAAHH I have not done my work! Shall not talk more, ja ne~!

Saturday, July 25, 2009
-- 2:42 PM

Whaaa??? What happened to new post?
When I wanted to post, the box is distorted. Everything can't really be seen.
Never mind, I shall post a video, cuz' I'm too lazy to blog.

It's a very cute Doujin. Gokudera and Yamamoto are rabbits. Tsuna is the zookeeper.
Hibari is a cat?!
Well, enjoy!
Warning: Yaoi.

Wednesday, July 22, 2009
-Heartbroken...- 4:17 PM

Haixx. Unsuccessful in DSA application. Heartbroken...
However, I will not give up.
I will do my best in PSLE.
I will do anything to achieve my goal.
I still believe there is hope...

I'm not a fragile person. I will not lose sight of my goal even though met with setbacks... Nor give up halfway.
It will be wasting my time. Might as well bang my head against the wall rather than give up.

Me: DAAAAAAADDD.... *wails*
Father: So you received the email from RGS?
Me: Cannot.
Father: Oh, you haven't received the email?
Me: Cannot. Make. It. Unsuccessful.
Father: Huh?
Me: Haixx. Cannot go...
Father: Oww, poor Sze Hui. You sad or not?
Me: I'm not sad. Because I know that I still have my goal in mind and I will work hard to achieve it.
Father: Well said. Work hard for PSLE okay?
Me: Ahh...yaa.

Yay so happy I can sit with Yee Ting. Found another Shounen-ai fan who watches Loveless and Gravitation. Woots?

Spent most of yesterday reading Dolls and [switch] both by Naked Ape. My very good shounen-ai detector found the yaoi hints immediately =D Shouta and Tama...
Too bad no anime for Dolls! OMG, Shouta is so shuai!!!
Shouta x Seiju is love. Seiju is damn cute, especially the long hair. What's with the chapters dropped and liscensed? Darn.


Look at my hair, the back part. Spiky :D
Cannot really see, but yeah. Cool right?

OMG just read the 8059 Doujin OVERJOYED!! Sooo damn cute.
TYL Gokudera is even hotter than he is in the anime! Gawd!
I fangirled over it the whole time!!!
Gokudera self-incest...I swear I almost got a nosebleed...Feeling very hot on my forehead now.(Oh no getting a fever!) So damn hot!!! (Don't hate me for liking incest. And self-incest.)
Chuckles at "MARRY ME, GOKUDERA!" said by Yama-chan.
I also read Virginia, another 8059 doujin. Gokudera cross-dressing is love! OMG, "I will rape you with my dying will!" Yamamoto in Dying Will mode. That's just so....to die for.
I can't imagine what will happen if TYL Gokudera rapes Gokudera... (feels light-headed)
Haha, during chinese class I was saying, Light is gay for L and L is gay for Light.
I was reading one of the 6 Joy essays and "The man pushed another and a woman's scream came out..." LOL. I told Joey at first and she was like, "You...you very sick lehh!"
Then I showed Yee Ting and she said, "I know what you're thinking... This story very misleading. If you skim through, you'll get the wrong idea."

Since Naked Ape does Yaoi doujins, I hope Shouta rapes Seiju or something like that. Ahhhh...

Mikoshiba Shouta!!! *starts fangirling*

Shikibu Seiju!!! The hair!!!

Hahas, gotta go eat dinner. Update more later.

I'm back~!

Shikibu Seiju
Image is too freakin' big to upload, so yeah. Should check it out!! It's a masterpiece!

Monday, July 20, 2009
-Change seats?!- 7:02 PM

Haixx. Have to change seats.
Mrs Mok: Sze Hui, you have to change your seat by tomorrow or you can sit outside the classroom!
Me: EHHH?! *starts thinking about strategies*

I decided to switch with Sejal. That way, I'll be sitting next to Lauren and 1 seat away from C.2. Also, Sejal gets to sit beside Sharvini. If Mrs Mok is unhappy with this, I will switch place with Rachel Low. Then, I can talk to Cassie as well as Bernice. Woots. Anyway, she justs wants me away from C.2 and away from the window. Thanks a lot, Mr. Bee. I appreciate your very kind help. (NOT!) Hahas, remembering how the bee kept trying to enter the classroom, and so when we spotted it, the whole row was like, "AHHH!" and smacked the windows. Especially C.2 and I. Why? Cuz' the bee went to our side countless times. Moreover, I keep turning back to talk to C.2 and crack jokes. Mrs Mok is probably very pissed with this. Oh well... But hohoho, I'm a class traveller, I can sit next to anyone at all. And I can talk to anyone. That is why class travellers are so lovable. JKJK. So, change my seat as many times you want! I don't mind! I don't care even if I have to sit next to RC!

Yay! Choir resumes! *starts playing stupid music* Gets!!!
The Choir President and her Cabinet returns!!
The Cabinet Ministers are: Valerie Hollen, Joey Low, Kok Fangling and Valarie Tham! Hand-picked by yours truly! Yeah!
Enough of fooling around. Anyway, I miss Ms. Angila! I miss scolding the Juniors! (see how evil I am) I miss ordering people to do warm-ups! Woots!

Mrs Mok: Register 1-21, that side. *points to Love class* Register 22-42, that side. *points to Joy class*
Fellow classmates(Shannon & co.): Yes!
Mrs Mok: Do I hear a few Yes's? Switch!
C.2 & I: Gets!! (just for the sake of saying it. hahas)
Class: YES!
Mrs Mok: What? Even more yes's? Switch back!
C.2 & I: Gets!!!!
Mrs Mok: *gives up*

By the way, "Gets!" came from Kouta Hirano. The mangaka of Hellsing. I shall adopt his style now.

  • Ah...I've run out of things to talk about.
  • Since it's a waste of space if I don't use it, i'll fill it up with a song.
Oh we're going to the zoo, yeah yeah yeah yeah!
Oh we're going to the zoo, yo yo yo yo!
(rap part) A is for ant yo,
B is for Bat.
C is for Cat
and D is for Dog, dawg.
E is for Elephant,
F is for Fish (yo f**kin' momma)
G is for Gorilla yeah,
H is for Hedgehog.
I is for Iguana yo,
J is for Jaguar.
K is for Krill oh,
L is for Lynx,
and M is for Moose.
O is for Orangutan yeah,
P is for Possum.
Q is for Queen Angelfish (o_0)
YO YO YO!
R is for Raccoon,
S is for Squirrel!
T is for Tasmanian Devil,
U is for Urchin
and V is for Viper!
W is for Whale yeah,
X is for Xantus (O.O)
and Y is for Yak.
Z is for Zoo ho,
and enjoy yo trip yo.

Phew. I almost died thinking of the animals!
Gets!!
I hope you have enjoyed this song.
No?



As a punishment, I'll pluck off your p*nis.
Reference: Hellsing Vol. 8 Valentine brothers stories. LOL! They are always so funny!

Sister: This is for you. *hands me a brochure*
Me: *reads* Invitation to a special event
Clinical Practice Guidelines on
Management of Genital Ulcers and Discharges
2009
*bursts out laughing* HAHAHAHA! HIIHIIHIII!! HOHOHOHO!
Sister: You should go for this, since you're so interested.
Me: WHAT?! YOU should go for it.
Sister: Nah, you should. Hmm. RSVP. Here, I'll put your name.
Me: NOOOOO!!! Dad should. DAD! *puts the brochure right on top of his face(he's lying down)*
Dad: *takes it off and starts reading* ... ... ... *puts it back on the table*
Me: *opens and reads inside* Programme
12.30 pm Lunch & Registration
2.00 pm Welcome and introduction Dr Tan Hiok Hee
2.10 pm Approach to genital ulcers Dr Priya Sen
2.40 pm Tea Break
3.00 pm Approach to penile discharge *scoffs* Dr Martin Chio (chio? got chio meh?)
3.20 pm Approach to vaginal discharge Dr Tan Thiam Chye
3.50 pm Questions and answers Panel of speakers (I want to be one!)
4.15 pm End
Sister: Huh? Dr Tan TC? *mutters something bad about him*
Me: He must be happy to talk about "Approach to vaginal discharge".

Wah, my fic so popular sia, everyone also want to read.
C.2 read it twice. In class. I had to shut her up everytime she saw the word c*ck.
Petunia read it twice. 2nd time, she said, "Must read slowly...Try to understand...Try to visualize..."
Joey read it once. During Chinese class. Covered her mouth and gawked at it.
Prim read it once, also during Chinese class. She said, "You wrote it yourself? *ahem. yeah* Very...good..."
Yee Ting also read it once. She said, "Huh? No more? Write more lah... I like your style. Dunno how to explain...but it's good..."
Bernice read it halfway(one page) and did not turn to the next page. Petunia said, "Still got lehh." She was like, "Too gay..."
Well, it's mainly a fanfic on Zombie-Loan. Pairing: Shito x Chika. Rated : M. Due to yaoi lemon. Very hardcore... Shito is the seme. I seriously dunno why some people like Chika as seme, Shito is much better... Ahh... He's a disgustingly beautiful monster...*starts fangirling*

Before I start acting up like Ibuki Fuuko from Clannad, I shall sign out. Bye~!

Wednesday, July 15, 2009
-Bored...- 8:54 PM

Aiyoh, today so boring, almost nothing to blog lehh.
And I only folded 3 paper cranes out of 15! The rest have been folded by Joey =D
And the last crane of the cranes I folded has its neck craned to face the other cranes to see a crane.
I bet you didn't get that.
I shall put it in simple language.
I folded a crane with the neck facing left (or right, cannot remember). It was so funny. I was like, "Hey it ish unique! Look at itsh neck!"
And did I mention I 'm hopeless at origami? I simply can't memorize the steps. That's because I have a short term memory. You teach me something, if I do not practise it more than thrice, I'll forget how to do it after a day. That's how bad it gets. Unless it's something more important like academics. Or maybe something funny.
But I also have some space for dirty jokes too.

In order to make up for the space, I shall post some of the interesting things I have heard recently.

"Who wetted my banana?" (during the break of our match against St. Margaret's)
"Continue feeding them with balls." (said by Ms Yeo during netball)
"F**K YOU!!!!" (somebody yelled into the phone)
"If you do not know how to spell faeces and waste material in the exam, write shit. S-H-I-T."(the amazing thing is, Ms Lim or Mdm Reddy walked past)
"...the forgery of the fallen Madonna with the big boobies..."
"The animax dubbing of the anime Air Gear is so horrible! Whenever Agito says fuck, they don't say fuck but they say darn it, damn it, god damn it!" (o_0 said by Joey before a choir performance. People were staring at us because we were swearing so much!)
"What is this shitty crap?" (said by my brother)
"You got the answer already and you still ask me for what?" (again, my brother)
"Don't need to study for PSLE lah." (my stupid brother. He got 260+ for PSLE without studying!)
"I do not know you..." (said by lots of people to me)
"What is Escargot?" (asked by Lauren. LOL)
"Big boobies, boobies, boobies..." (C2 and I were shouting this out to the window)
"The holy middle finger!" *points the middle finger and waves it around* (by C2 and I)
"See, we made them fuck-buddies." (C2 to me. We were using Tuna's dolls to do sick stuff)
"Aah, aaahh, aahh, ahhh!" (Bern's stupid moaning)
"You read Sensitive Pornograph right?"(in the staff room! my response: "yeahh..."while nodding my head.)
"We belong to a sick society..." (Father Edmund)
"If you could date either Girl A or Girl B, which girl will you pick? Ans: I will pick death." (Kouta Hirano)
"I will f**k her, and f**k her and f**k her dead body again!" (Jan Valentine)
"Dango, dango, dango, dango, dango dai kazoku!" (Nagisa)

Okay, hope you enjoyed the above. Now for the things that I've said!
"I LOVE YOU!!!" (what a shocking confession. To my beloved Zangetsu keychain that's so sharp.)
"A-kun I love you!" (in the middle of Mrs Mok's class)
"Dammit I hate Captain Aizen!" (in the canteen)
"F********CK!" (in the canteen, again. Shouldn't have shouted that.)
"You stubborn ass." (to my father in the car.)
"Shounen-ai ROCKS!!!" (sometime in class)
"I watch Sensitive Pornograph." (in Chinese class)
"I like incest. Hot yaoi incest." (during dismissal period when everyone is rushing around)
"Well, that shows that he has a hot bod." (to Andrea on MSN. we were talking about Ichigo's 6-pack. Sigh. What refined abs.)
"Seems like my hormones are only active for hot shounen-ai boys." (when people were crazy about Mr. Fauzy. WTF.anything special mehh?)
"You will never be able to comprehend how sick and twisted I am." (dunno when I said this.)
"OMG! The guy dilapidated the woman and put her head in her sliced-up stomach and intestines! That's so cool!" (I was talking to Joey about the manga Goth. See how twisted I am.)
"See? I licked it clean. Again." (in the canteen to Cassie[don't think sick I'm talking about the plates])
"Imperfection is perfection. Perfection is imperfection. Wait, what the hell am I saying?" (I got tongue-tied)
"Eureka!!" (I've shouted this in random places and random times a few hundred times.)
"Aaahh...Aaaahhh..I feel very bad..." (I was moaning in the car cuz' I got a bit car-sick)
"Damn it my ass hurts." (I was trying to do scorekeeping but the stupid bench was so hot!)
"You f**king asshole, go suck a cl*t!" (angrily to a guy whom I don't know on MSN who harrassed me)

Enough! Too lazy to think already. See ya~!

Tuesday, July 14, 2009
-Yahoooey!- 7:50 PM

GAT is over. Yahooooey!
Yupp, I have a sudden fetish over Yahooooey-ing. It originated from ME. Ya-ha?
However, I'm not going to disclose any information about the test. Kufufufufu....?
Haha, C2 and I were Yahooooey-ing when we got the question correct. Remember? Today in class, Mrs Mok went through Science. Then suddenly, "YAHOOOEY!" came from the back of the class.
She was like, "What?"
C2 went," nothing..." I nodded my head in agreement.
Last question.....
Mrs Mok said, "4."
"YAHOOOOOEEEY!" Came very loudly. Yeah, cuz' it was the last question and we got it all right.
Then Mrs Mok went, "Oh, correct answer 'Yahoo...."
And I muttered, "You forgot the 'ey'. Yahoooey."

GAAAAHH! This morning I was so pissed!!! I stormed up the stairs in less than 2 minutes! (Now you know how pissed I was. And sad.)
My phone is SPOILED! GRAAAHHH!! The keypad with the "enter" and my scroller(the damn fun turn-turn one) and left-right key etc. all spoiled! Except for the numbers! Dammit! WTF!! Cannot even access the menu!
A few days ago it was already a bit sod-sod. It was a few days after I dropped it. I was in the fitting room, knowing my phone is so slim, it slipped out of my pants' pocket and "PIAK"! At first I thought it was fine, but then... *starts sobbing* At least the memory card okay. I think. Inside my phone is my pictures!! WAAAH! It contains the president photo as well! The one which my father and I took with Mr. Nathan! Nooooo!! *proceeds to wailing*
It has my recorded Daia no Hana (instrumental - full)! Never mind, at least can record again.
My mother offered to let me use her Sony Ericsson Walkman phone W890 but it was almost time for school so I decided to fiddle with it when I get home. When I complained to my father, he was like, "Never mind la, my phone contract should reach soon. I upgrade and give you the phone lor."
Then I was like, "But your phone lehh?" (Ya I'm a daddy's girl.)
"I use the old one la, you can have the new one!" (Sho happy, efforts paid off.)
Then when I came back from piano lesson, I said, "You know what I will do if my phone drop into the toilet bowl?"
"What?"
"If no shit and no pee, I will pick it up. If got shit, then..."
"Then?"
"DAAAAAADD! Help me pick up my phone!"
"Walao, you everything also Dad, Dad, Dad!"
"Hehe. Bring to the shop and say, Trade-in!"
"Then the guy will say, 'How come it smells so weird?'"
"I'll say, 'It's your imagination la. It's perfume, okay!'"
"'Then how come it smells like shit?'"
"'It's Eau de Toilette!'" (LOL) We started laughing.

Oh yeah, Mrs Mok wrote this on the board (for science file cover):
S - Smart
C - Clever
I - Intelligent
E - ??
N - Naugh-ative
C - ??
E - ??

My version:
S - Stupid
C - Crazy
I - Idiotic
E - Escargot
N - Never mind
C - Cursed
E - Explosion

F - F*ck
I - Imbecile
L - Lame
E - Elephant
So offensive! Haha! But it still makes up Science (File).
The File part was suggested by C2, but I thought of the I and E in it.
Yahooooey!
Lauren doesn't know what's Escargot. C2, Joey and I made it sound like a sick word.
Cuz' I was like, "If you don't know what 'Escargot' means, you shall not be a member of the Idiotic Gang. We do not acknowledge you as one of us! MUAHAHAHA!"
So someone might think it's a dirty word. It's so fun to tease people like that. Anyway, I'm sure you know what Escargot means. It's not a sick word. Wait...It is.
(Did I just taint the word again?)
Whoever's name who is mentioned by me shall be tainted! Because I own more than 40 Items of Taint and Shame! (Haha, I'm not making sense. I'm talking about a game which only Joey and I know.) I am a multi-millionaire! I've enough money to steal 34 people each worth 100k! The taint is coming!
(Please ignore the previous paragraph.)
*Dodges the rotten eggs, tomatoes and dried-up veggies which are aimed at me*
I think I have become a little eccentric. I have lost it, due to too much stress.
Wait, you can't lose what you never had. XD
I have never been so stressed in my whole entire life. Yeah.
Life for me has been so simple I really have to thank God for blessing me, for blessing me with so many friends, and that special joy which is everlasting, unlike happiness. I truly believe there is a difference between joy and happiness. Happiness is only skin-deep. However, joy is locked deep inside your heart. Even when Paul was in prison, he rejoiced. 'Yes, and I will continue to rejoice, for I know that through your prayers and the help given by the Spirit of Christ Jesus, what has happened to me will turn out for my deliverance.'
'Do nothing out of selfish ambition or vain conceit, but in humility consider others better than yourselves. Each of you should look not only to your own interests, but also to the interests of others.' ~Philippians Chapter 2 Verse 3-4
So even when I'm very stressed, I will rejoice.
'I thank my God every time I remember you. In all of my prayers for all of you, I always pray with joy.' ~Philippians Chapter 1 Verse 3-4
And you might not know this, but whenever I pray, I will pray not only for myself but for my friends as well. I believe that everyone has equal rights.

See? I agree with my pastor that "Old Christians talk like they're preaching and they're floating on air; memory verse here, memory verse there..." And by old, he means being Christians for years. (but not decades la)
Aiyo, I realize that I blog regularly once in a blue moon but every post is very long. Like a story. So I shall not go any further. Bye!

Monday, July 13, 2009
-My endless preaching...- 9:57 PM

GAT tomorrow! Ahhh! 神様 (kami-sama - God), 助けて! (tasukete - help!)
But, I have done all I could. I shall pray once I'm done with blogging.

Okay. After these few lines I'll start preaching about stuff. If you do not want to do any reflections about yourself, just don't read it. And what I will be saying, I meant it. I'm serious about this, now that I have set a goal for myself.

Life is so complicated, you sometimes wonder why you were even born as a human. Why not a fish? A bird? A robot?
Life could be so simple sometimes. Oh well, but since you've been given a gift by God, why not accept it and use it to the fullest?
I sometimes wonder why we are so competitive. To make our parents and teachers satisfied? I don't think so.
To boast about the result? No way.
I think it is just human nature. The world is all about survival of the fittest. If you are not up to the competition, society will ostracize you. That is the real nature of society. You are afraid that if you do not do well, you will be ostracized. But what is the reason behind not doing well? You are just being paranoid. You are just lazy. You can't be bothered, you don't want to learn. I'm sure all of you have the potential to succeed. You are not mentally impaired. You have a mind of your own. You must put it into good use, and with the correct mindset, you will be able to achieve anything within the boundary of nature's laws.
It is very simple, yet complicated. If you say you cannot do something, you are investing in NOT being able to do something. So actions, thoughts and words are very important. Whatever you say, think and do, you are investing your energy in. So if you act, think and talk positively, you are investing your energy in doing it WELL.
Life can only be lived to the fullest if what matters to you is the process of doing things. When you truly experience the process, you may find joy in learning. Geniuses are people who are life-long learners. Geniuses are people who have a special mindset and have set rules to discipline themselves to achieve their goal. They have already found the key to unlock the door; they have seen the light. So why stay in the darkness? Are you waiting for the devil's attack?
It is good to be unique, it is fantastic. By imitating another, you will never really learn. You must figure out something yourself. You must find that key yourself, each of us have our own unique keys. Nobody will have similar keys.

So, I hope this article has invoked some thinking into you. Please do some reflecting on it, as this is a really important year, when everything happens. This is also the year which we might really bond with our friends and learn how important they are.
友達
ともだち (tomodachi - friends)
どうかして私は恐れている感じる。 この語を恐れている。
Somehow I'm afraid. Afraid of this word.
Such a little word could mean a huge impact on your life.
You think about it everyday.
Without it you're lonely.
Really lonely.

Friends.

Saturday, July 11, 2009
-Declarations- 5:27 PM

I have decided to make some promises to myself.

-Matters concerning RC-
I think I'll be quitting Restaurant City. My three main dishes reached level 10 two weeks ago, and I have to study my butt off (saying this for the second time). I'm quite satisfied with my GP, 2nd in my street, my brother in front of me.

-Matters concerning anime-
I guess I'll be putting games on a TOTAL hold until after prelims, then hold again, until after PSLE. I wanna go RGS, you know!
I'll be narrowing watching ongoing anime to once a week. Yeah, and those are Reborn! and Bleach, which are out once a week! For already completed series, I PROMISE myself to watch only Monster and Clannad when I have completed homework and revision. 2nd criteria: watch those two anime only one episodes each a day. Or two episodes of one of the anime a day.
When I complete these two series, start ONLY Air Gear and Soul Eater, plus one more anime if I have completed them. This routine applies to until PSLE is over.

-Matters concerning manga-
I will put reading manga online on hold too, unless otherwise stated. If not, two chapters a day only.

-Matters concerning music-
Leaving music on while studying is okay. Just don't blast.

-Matters concerning blogging-
Blogging everyday is fine, cuz' blogging is healthy. And it improves my English! As long as I use proper English, which means NO short forms, it's fine.

-Matters concerning reading-
I promise I will read good books! Except for Emma! And maybe attempt War and Peace! And not to forget read my chinese textbook!

That's about it. I have decided to be a diligent pupil and study my butt off. I will make sure I keep my promises or I will punish myself by making myself read Yes Minister ~Diaries of a Cabinet Minister~.

Ahh, I am happy from the bottom of my buttocks that I can actually self-discipline myself!
I am a very meticulous student, actually! It's just that I can't sit down and study those stacks of stuff!

-Studying my butt off!- 12:52 PM


Fuckingham Palace - DETROIT METAL CITY

WARNING!!! Do NOT listen to this at max volume unless you're alone. OR you'll get KILLED!
Please hit the "Play full song here" link. If not you will not get the best part of the song.

Sigh. So much homework. GAT on Tuesday. I am studying my butt off! For the 4 A*s!

Korose korose, oya nado korose!
Korose korose, subete o korose!!
Satsugai, satsugai seyo! Satsugai, satsugai seyo!
*KILL KILL KILL KILL*
Hahas, this is from the song Satsugai. "俺は地獄のTERRORIST" (I am a terrorist from hell)
This song has a sense of humor man. To me larh. It's Detroit Metal City (anime)'s opening song.

Sho happy, my IQ is 132~ 100 being the average.
But still, no time to relax for GAT.
Wow, there's homework for every subject. I'm damn pissed lahh.

Woots, going to Cosfest tomorrow. The location is called D' Tent?!

My mother is complaining about my hair growing out of control and looking 不三不四 because of the not-so-exaggerated layers (my previous haircut was a bob). So I refused to go for a haircut. Might as well wait for my hair to grow longer and go all-out with the layers! Sigh, I have lots of split ends. But at least my hair looks choppy without being razored =D

Okay, better get to studying. See ya~!

Friday, July 10, 2009
-Haixx- 6:23 PM


Unholy Confessions - Avenged Sevenfold
Haixx.
So much to say, yet I just can't say it.
I feel like singing a sad song.
Sakura by Ikimonogakari?
Tokyo by YUI?
Yeah, I've already tried singing those two. I ended up picturing a sad love story. Due to Clannad. (Don't get the wrong idea, I didn't break up or anything, in fact I don't even have anyone to break up with!)
Just so damn sad.
Haha, but Unholy Confessions by Avenged Sevenfold works. It's nice! Go listen!
So does Fuckingham Palace by Jack ill Dark. It's not possible to count the number of fucks he says. The intro already got 20. Yeah. I counted. The ending is impossible to count. By the way, Jack ill Dark is a fictional character in the movie Detroit Metal City.
And Detroit Metal City is one of the movies watched during the movie marathon. Dawn of the Dead too. I'm sure most of you have heard of it. Hahas, they go to the other island, then still got zombies. No more survivors! YA-HA!!(That's quoted from my brother.) Well, then have you heard of Shaun of the Dead? LOL it's so damn funny. The only scary parts are the stupid shocks+sound effects. I screamed. Twice. LOL. It's totally mimicking Dawn of the Dead.

Rofl, it's so fun to tease Shruthi. Especially with her Arumbu textbook. I flipped to a random page and saw a very old man with a overgrown bushy beard. And we started discussing what his name should be. Kai Qian was like, "Bala! Bala!"
Then Shruthi said, "No, no, it's Ravi..Ravin..."
Then I said "Ravinsa@%^&)$*trana?" Yeah, I was full of crap.
Then Shruthi was like. "Yes."
We were like, "Huh?!"
She started saying, "Ravi$^&%$@^&nat..."
And Bernice heard it as "Ravi ground nut." We burst out laughing.
* * *
A few minutes later...
"Ravin^%#%&*#$dranat!" I shouted.
Bernice was like, "Sze Hui stop being so random."
"Yeah you know I siao-siao one." I said.

Got nothing to do, shall post the lyrics of Sorry Sorry by Super Junior.
Sorry Sorry Sorry Sorry
Naega naega naega munjuh
Nehgae nehgae nehgae bbajuh bbajuh bbajuh party baby
Shawty Shawty Shawty Shawty
Noonee booshuh booshuh booshuh
Soomee makhyuh makhyuh makhyuh
Naega micheo micheo baby

Baraboneun noonbit sokeh
Noonbit sokkeh naneun machi
Naneun micheo mwuheh holin nom
Eejen busuhnajido mothae
Guluhohneun nuheh moseup
Nuheh moseup nuhnen machi
Nae shimjangeul balbgo watnabwah
Eejen busuhnajido mothae

Uhdeel gana dangdanghageh
Ootneun nuhneun maeryukjuk
Chakhan yeoja ilshikeeran
Saenggakdeuleun bopyunjuk
Dohdohageh guhchim ubgae
Jungmahl nuhneun hwansangjuk
Dohleekeel soo ubseulmankeum
Naegae bbajuh buhryuseo

Repeat Chorus

Hey girl girl girl girl girl girl girl
Noonmanddeumyun ni saenggak Hey girl
Janakkehnah sashil nuh hana bakeh ahnboyuh
Mahlhaebwah ni mameh naega
Mahlhaebwah jari jabatneunji
Mahlhaejo naegeh mahlhaejo
Naneun babo babo babo

Joobyun saramdeuleun malhhae
Naega nuhmoo jukgeukjuk
Ee saesahngeh geurun saram
Uhdee handooleenyahgo
Geuguhl molla geunyuhl molla
Shigihamyuh haneun mahl
Naegae boorupdamyun geugun
Geudaedeulee geeneun guh

Repeat Chorus
Let’s dance dance dance dance (x3)

Hey eejen geuman naegae wahjooleh
Jungmahl michil gutman gatah yeah
Nan neoman saranghago shippo
Juhldeh dashi hanoon pahl saenggak ubseo hey

Aeineerakiboda chingookateun
Naega dwehgo shippeo
Neoeh modeun gomin seulpeum
Hahmkkeh ganjeekhagopa
Dashi ubseul mankeum mankeum
Nuhruhl nuhmoo saranghae
Naega bahran saram niga baro geu
that that that girl

Repeat Chorus

Ahhh!!! Mrs Mok expect everyone to get 1 A* and 3 A's to go to her party! So stressed! I feel that that criteria cannot be met! No, actually the criteria 60 A* 's is even worse.

Anyone sick enough to see Hellsing Volume 7, back cover (underneath), bottom left hand corner? I just found that out during class.

Aiya, I dunno what to say already la, I go do homework and listen to songs. Sore ja! Mata ne!

Tuesday, July 7, 2009
--RANDOM-♥- 9:10 PM

GRAAAH! I haven't finished my homework! And I'm still blogging! Oh no! Sorry, my blog WAS dead. But now it isn't. I'm rejoicing. Ha. (Has anybody ever tried to count how many times the word "rejoice" appears in the book of Philippians?)
Okay. I have so many things to say, yet nothing to say. How many months has it been since I last posted in this blog? Let's see, 1,2,3,4...(dodges the forks and spears and torches thrown at me)
I'm SORRY! Yeahhh.
So the bracket returns! (that was random. I said that in chinese class awhile back when I extended the bracket for ting xie signature. now got new book, so I drew a new bracket. Ya-ha?)
To avoid being killed by you people who are now reading, I am goooonnnaa post soooome of my favourite QUOTES. Yeah you heard right. QUOTES. Shall I spell it out? Q-U-O-T-S. Wait I spelled it wrong. Was it (Q-U-A-D-S)? Oh well, never mind.
I'm in a normal mood now. A bit high. A bit moody. Life in the classroom has become more lively since C2 migrated to my place. Now I have someone whom I can tell stupid jokes and random thoughts to.
"Before creation there must be destruction. If my soul stands in my way I'll toss it aside. Yes, my hands have already been stained with blood. It's too late to turn back."
~Code Geass

"In this world, there is no one that is unbeatable." ~Eyeshield 21

"In American football, even when the opponent scores 99 points, we'll win if we score 100 points. The most important thing in American football is offense."
~Eyeshield 21

"What a letdown, Kurosaki-san. A real letdown. After all, there's nothing but fear reflected in your sword. When you dodge, "I'm afraid of getting cut." When you attack, "I'm afraid of cutting someone." Even when you try to protect someone, "I'm afraid of letting them die." Yes, your sword speaks to me only of absurd fear. That's not it. What's necessary in a fight isn't fear. Nothing can be born from that. If you dodge, "I won't let them cut me." If you protect someone, "I won't let them die." If you attack, "I'll cut them." Well, can't you see the resolve to cut you reflected in my sword?"
~Bleach

Rukia: "Any questions so far?"
Ichigo: "Yeah. Why do your drawings suck so bad?"
~Bleach

"From the day I was born, till the day I die, the only side I am on is mine."
~Saiyuki


"I was dead until the moment I met you. I was a powerless corpse pretending to be alive. Living without power, without the ability to change my course, was akin to a slow death."
~Code Geass

"Embrace nothing:
If you meet the Buddha, kill the Buddha.
If you meet your father, kill your father.
Only live your life as it is,
not bound to anything."
~Saiyuki

"Inequality is not an evil. Equality itself is evil."
~Code Geass

"Lelouch...Do you know why the snow is white?...Because it forgot what colour it was."
~Code Geass

"You're not alone! We're accomplices. If you're a witch, then I'll become the devil."
~Code Geass

"I was dead until the moment I met you. I was a powerless corpse pretending to be alive."
~Code Geass

"The dead shall dance. Hell shall sing."
~Hellsing

"The Bird of Hermes is my name. Eating my wings to make me tame."
~Hellsing

Phew! What a whole lot of them! I hope you have enjoyed reading them. Saiyuki quotes are so profound I don't even know what I'm reading. My favourite quotes are actually from Code Geass and Hellsing, usually said by Lelouch and Alucard. Did I mention Lelouch is damn hot?!
Hmm, what else to say?
Never did I know the anime Monster actually had over 70 episodes. Well, it's mystery and horror and very confusing but nonetheless, I like it because it's very different from other anime. The drawings, the music and the plot. Yeah. I am a serious anime critic, not only a fangirl. I have criticized countess anime and manga.
Oh. Right. Zombie-Loan rox! The Shito x Michiru x Chika couple is so cute! I can't believe my eyes! And I have finally decided which of the boys, Shito and Chika, are hotter (I sound like I'm doing synthesis & transformation).
Drumrolls pwease..................
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And the result is.....
SHITO! Yeah! I love his antenna hair. I dunno why, I just prefer him over Chika. And did I mention he's centuries old despite his hot bod?
And his voice actor is Takahiro Sakurai! A voice actor in some of my favourite anime like Gravitation, Samurai Deeper Kyo, Black Cat, Bleach, Rozen Maiden, D.Gray-man, Code Geass, Junjou Romantica...
He's officially my favourite voice actor.

Oh well...I have nothing more to say AT THE MOMENT.
Oh crap! I forgot about my homework! Goddammit!

Sigh. Mrs Mok wants to see science Q review. I almost did it in my personal fiction notebook which has *that* stuff. Nobody is supposed to view or even touch that notebook anyway (except my mother who doesn't understand English and I), as it's waayy too personal and yeah. Innocent people stay away! Nope, it's not a fanfiction or anything. Genres: Horror, Romance, Yaoi(not just shounen-ai), Action and (wait I have given you too many clues!) yeah.

I have exhausted myself out from typing!
Went shopping at Vivo City yesterday and bought a new bag from Zinc. It's purple. And many pockets. YAY I love pockets! And dinosaurs! And leeks! And coffee! (Ugh the disease from the fanfic Dinosaurs, Leeks, and Coffee in D.Gray-man has got to me.)

Ahh, your totally random and weird friend,
Sze Hui