.PROFILE.
Kayumi Hirai

The Dark Angel
Umm, hi.
I know I'm not your idea of a typical 14-year-old girl. My birthday's on 9th February, and I happen to like that date a lot. I share my birthday & birthday month with very awesome people.
I have a thing for heavy music, I love J-Rock and heavy metal. I adore the Visual Kei scene.
I'm an otaku. I spend my days rotting at the computer gawking at anime, manga, music and whatnot.
I'm weird. I tend to like dark and depressing things. It doesn't make me emo or suicidal. People do have their dark moments.
If you're easily offended by gay things, this might not be the right place for you. I love yaoi and you can't change that.
Interesting guitar riffs and shredding are my weakness. You might think guitar's my specialty, but it isn't. I do play acoustic and electric guitar, but piano's what I major in. I play the Guzheng a little too.
And that's about all I have to say about me.

傷付けた後でしか 気付けなかった事
過ちの数 君を求め 見め合えたはずさ
I only realized after hurting you, that I was counting the number of flaws you had when we should have looked at each other.

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.MUSIC.
hear you sing


MusicPlaylist
Music Playlist at MixPod.com

.MOOD.
mind twist

This girl is forever random. She might sometimes suffer from moodswings, but most of the time she's feeling... happy? I don't know.
She likes to be called goth and not emo.
She is all for gay.
She has somehow developed a glasses fetish from staring at the picture up there.
When she's feeling sad, she'll go ranting about things and sound like a philosopher.
She is a narcissist.
Red, black and purple are the colours to describe her mood.

.THESE WORDS.
talk to me

.PAST.
reverse time

- June 2008 - July 2008 - August 2008 - September 2008 - November 2008 - January 2009 - February 2009 - July 2009 - August 2009 - September 2009 - October 2009 - November 2009 - January 2010 - February 2010 - March 2010 - April 2010 - May 2010 - June 2010 - July 2010 - August 2010 - September 2010 - October 2010 - November 2010 - December 2010 - January 2011 - February 2011 - March 2011 - April 2011 - May 2011 - June 2011 - July 2011 - August 2011 - November 2011 - April 2014

.CREDIT.
making of

AkamatsuA

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I have given up on designing my own skins, so a big thank you to the designer! =D Hearts!

Tuesday, September 15, 2009
-A late-night quiz!- 10:10 PM

I got nothing to blog... Paiseh lehh Bernice, I steal your quiz hor!
1.) Have you ever been asked out?
I'm not in the mood to recall now XD

2.) Where was your default picture taken?
Erm... In my room with my webcam?

3.) What's your middle name?
Do I look like I have one?

4.) Your current relationship status?
Single!

5.)
Does your crush like you back?
Unfortunately, he is completely fictional.

6.) What is your current mood?
Tired and bored, kinda worried about PSLE and other stuff...

7.) What color of underwear are you wearing?
I shall skip this personal question.

8.) What color shirt are you wearing?
Beidge + Purple + Dark Green?

9.)
Missing something?
Yes?

10.)
If you could go back in time and change something, what would you do?
Uh... I'll spend my time more wisely and gain as much knowledge as I can, waste less time... :D

11.) If you must be an animal for one day, what?
An eagle! What's better than having perfect eyes and timing?

12.) Ever had a near death experience?
Yupp, crossing the road and almost getting knocked over.

13.) Something you do a lot?
Surfing the internet.

14.) The song stuck in your head?
Only Human by K. Ichi Liter no Namida is too sad... *sobs*


15.) Who did you copy and paste this from?
Bernice XD

16.) Name someone with the same birthday as you?
Hankyung from Super Junior =D

17.) When was the last time you cried?
Maybe when watching Ichi Liter no Namida? Less than a week ago.

18.) Have you ever sung in front of a large audience?
Many times, obviously. Performed in front of an audience of around one thousand XD

19.) If you could have one super power what would it be?
Psychokinesis! But maybe I should not be greedy. Clairvoyance ;D

20.) What's the first thing you notice about the opposite sex?
Hair! I'm particular about hair. Next would probably be the overall appearance.

21.) What do you usually order from Starbucks?
I don't go to Starbucks.

22.) What's your biggest secret?
You think I would tell?

23.) Favorite color?
Red, I guess.

24.) Do you still watch kiddie movies or tv shows?
Yeah!

25.) What's on your wall?
Purple paint and 1 Shugo Chara! poster, 1 Shakugan no Shana poster and 1 Reborn! poster.

26.) What are you?
Anime and manga maniac as well as a to-be psychologist with the ablity of clairvoyance!

27.) Do you speak any other language?
Chinese, Japanese, a little French and German, as well as Hokkien and Teochew for dialects.

28.) What's your favorite smell?
Rose? I think.

29.) Describe your life in one word.
Unpredictable.

30.) Have you ever kissed in the rain?
WTF?! No way! Unless you can tell the future...

31.) What are you thinking about now?
This bloody quiz as well as trying not to sleep.

33.) What should you be doing?
Chinese homework and revision for PSLE =D

34.) Who was the last person that made you upset/angry?
Not telling :X but it is not my mother who's naggy.

35.) How often do u talk to God?
Why, everyday you can talk to God! He's always there for you, especially when you have troubles.

36.) Do you like working in the yard?
Depends whether I have the time.

37.) If you could have any last name in the world, what would you want?
I'm pretty satisfied with my name now.

38.) Do you act differently around the person you like?
HE'S FICTIONAL!!

39.) What is your natural hair color?
Black with some natural brown streaks!

40.) Who was the last person to make you cry?
If you say 'person', I'd really have to dig a few years back in memory. I hardly ever get a full-blown quarrel or anything.


WAAH~ It's already 11pm?! That's why I named it late-night quiz. Hehe XD

Report book is back! My English marks were printed wrongly but I fortunately handed it back to Mrs Mok for amendments. But the overall total and percentage was not changed... But never mind, still can make do. My overall is 332, a bit less than I expected... Ahhh.... Just have to work harder then!

Thursday, September 10, 2009
-Three hundred and twenty years have passed since the coven sank in the dark.- 8:46 PM

Three hundred and twenty years have passed since the coven sank in the dark.
Witch.
Awaken power.
Bounds of juridisdiction.
Can not turn a blind eye to those infatuated by unforgiven power.

Three hundred and twenty years have passed since the coven sank in the dark.
Bugs flittering in the dark.
Life becomes mummified.
Immortal.
Cannot forgive the mind drained of emotion that seeks eternity.

Three hundred and twenty years have passed since the coven sank in the dark.
Beauty in disguise.
Death torn apart.
Pride and intolerance.
Rigorously kept her own world.
Her frozen heart needs to be thawed.

Three hundred and twenty years have passed since the coven sank in the dark.
A lost landscape.
An oppressed heart.
A wandering heart haunts the town clamoring for the past.

Three hundred and twenty years have passed since the coven sank in the dark.
Encounter in the rain.
Thousand of puppet strings.
Fragments of malice.
Passing hearts wrap the darkness in growing hatred.

Three hundred and twenty years have passed since the coven sank in the dark.
Innocent heart.
Summoning of destruction.
Parasitism and awe.
A tragic genious of gray soul cannot see the existence of darkness.

Three hundred and twenty years have passed since the coven sank in the dark.
Ritual of darkness.
Changing lives.
Straying from the right path.
Even a chosen one is not allowed to evaluate souls.

Three hundred and twenty years have passed since the coven sank in the dark.
The metaphor of death.
A summoned spirit.
The sealed past.
The darkness takes light away from the flame of revenge.

Three hundred and twenty years have passed since the coven sank in the dark.
A covert mission.
Revenge against an imformer.
Deception and remorse.
Cursed blood pulls the redeemed soul back into the darkness.

Three hundred and twenty years have passed since the coven sank in the dark.
Walled city.
Those who had forgotten their past.
Wandering runaways.
The child of darkness who strays there will be judged by the soul called "Eternal".

Three hundred and twenty years have passed since the coven sank in the dark.
Enchanting voice.
Forgotten past.
Time sunk in darkness.
Deep down in murky water, I touch the soul that has wandered in eternity.

Three hundred and twenty years have passed since the coven sank in the dark.
Inquisitors.
Witch hunters.
A crushed fate.
The child of darkness chosen by the Lord shall see the judgement.

Three hundred and twenty years have passed since the coven sank in the dark.
A bullet in the dark.
The letter from the past.
A smeared bond.
The nightmare without a vanishing point visits the abyss of darkness.

Three hundred and twenty years have passed since the coven sank in the dark.
Visit by the black robed.
Attacks and...
A farewell.
I descend alone into the darkness with the unseen truth.

Three hundred and twenty years have passed since the coven sank in the dark.
A detached past.
An unknown future.
The sealed present.
The forgotten past keeps whipering the words of darkness in a dry cage.

Three hundred and twenty years have passed since the coven sank in the dark.
A fugitive.
A small encounter.
An invisible truth.
An endless fate draws down a pitch-black curtain on stage between acts.

Three hundred and twenty years have passed since the coven sank in the dark.
The fragment for three centuries.
Stalking nightmares.
A letter from back of the memories.
An immortal phantom drives habitants of darkness to the feast of lust.

Three hundred and twenty years have passed since the coven sank in the dark.
Forbidden knowledge.
Endless remorse.
One ideal.
Those without future aren't even allowed to think now.

Three hundred and twenty years have passed since the coven sank in the dark.
The visitor of death.
The nightmare of the sacred goblet.
Lost hopes.
The silent huntter chuckles at her last from within the darkness.

Three hundred and twenty years have passed since the coven sank in the dark.
A hunter who waits for his prey.
The footprints.
Endless darkness.
The child of darkness still wishes to see tomorrow.

Three hundred and twenty years have passed since the coven sank in the dark.
The footsteps of destruction.
Phantom from the past.
Time that started to move again.
A potrait gives out speecheless whispers of frozen memories.

Three hundred and twenty years have passed since the coven sank in the dark.
Reunion.
Hatred for blood.
A dead-end alley.
The forbidden encounter restarts a stalled spinning wheel.

Three hundred and twenty years have passed since the coven sank in the dark.
A broken shell.
A forbidden power.
A prisoner.
The name of the sacred mother brings back an awe carved in the darkness.

Three hundred and twenty years have passed since the coven sank in the dark.
The caller.
Forgotten records.
Silent Catacombs.
The shattered past bleeds for the truth by words of confession.

Three hundred and twenty years have passed since the coven sank in the dark.
The trap of perdition.
A refused successor.
An eternal war...
Believing in a hope...
and its power to create the future, I start walking now.


Guess the anime?

Wednesday, September 9, 2009
-Happy Birthday!- 8:04 PM

It's Gokudera's birthday today! Woots!
Otanjoubi omedetou!
I really can't bother to type kanji. Hehe.
I shall post the lyrics to ...loop here!
And yes, he sounds like a dead man singing, he can't sing...
Oh well...

shinjiru koto nani ga attemo
mitsumeru koto nanimo osorezu
sasaeru koto donna toki demo
tsuranuku koto nani ga okottemo

kodoku na kokoro kakae naita yoru mo
kuyashikute korae kire nakute nagashita namida

juudaime ga moshimo fuan de makesou naraba
sono yami wo subete ore ga bakuha suru

hashiri tsuzukeru yo juudaime no yume kanau made
migiude to shite tatakatte miseru sa

shinjiru koto bosu no tamashii
kanjiru koto bosu no shimei wo

hitomi no okuni himeru hikari ishimo
sono subete ga ore no yuuki to tsuyosa ni naru

juudaime no kokoro moshimo koware sou naraba
kizuite hoshii ore ga iru koto wo
kono atsui bomuto kesshite yuru ga nai chuusei
arashi no shugosha mattou shite miseru

tatoe kono sora no yukue nani ga habandemo
mamori tsuzukeru sa ore wa itsumademo
tatoe kono karada hateru kotoga arou tomo
tomoshi tsuzukeru juudaime no honoo

I love his "juudaime"!

TYL Gokudera x Gokudera self-cest rules! Love it ^^

YAAAAAAAAAAAAAAYYY 07-Ghost episode 23 is out~!
Bleach 236 is also out!
How happy can I get?!?!?!

Friday, September 4, 2009
-The Sky and the Cloud- 5:43 PM

"Finally, all of you, live in harmony with one another; be sympathetic, love as brothers, be compassionate and humble. Do not repay evil with evil or insult with insult, but with blessing, because to this you were called so that you may inherit a blessing." 1 Peter 3:8-9
This verse is dedicated to everyone who has been having friendship problems, do not let anything affect your friendship.
You fall out just because of little things?
You call yourselves friends?
A true friend will tolerate all the troubles they face.
A true friend will not sabotage their friend.
Because of a quarrel that might seem big, you turn against your friend and go running to someone else, just to lean on them.
You let these petty matters affect you.

Have I talked bad about my true friends? Like said that they have a problem and nobody would be friends with them?
If I did, I probably only talked about how stupid they are or how proud they are. Yes, I admit it. I hate people who are too proud. I know I have been proud from time to time; everyone has. However, some people just speak with an annoying, proud tone that I absolutely hate. You'll see that I end up squabbling with them sooner or later.
But I never said I did not want to be friends with them anymore.
"Our friendship has already ended."
"We were never friends to begin with."
Come on. Don't say such things. It will just hurt yourself even more.

I know we all have different personalities, so it's really hard to keep a lasting friendship. I'm not saying that you have to be really nice to your friends and tolerate everything they say, but sometimes, you really have to give way.
Keep comments that trigger bad reactions from friends in your mind.
When you comment about certain people by talking, blogging, or using MSN, even if you put that person's name as anonymous, it's really easy to tell who you're talking about. The person whom you're talking about will know best. What if you said something about that person which is not true?
What if everything you said was just a misunderstanding?
Do you think that your friend will just forgive you like that?
I doubt so.
Because you said something like you did not want to be friends with her.
Don't throw away your dreams just because of your friend. Work doubly hard to prove that you can do better.
I know one day everything will turn out right.
But, you just have to suffer these periods of darkness.
Learn to take a step back.

I have quarreled with friends all throughout my life, but I knowing the other person, I decided to take a step back. This is all for the sake of being more Christ-like, and to honour our friendship.

Peace be with you.
~ ~ ~ ~ ~ ~

The Sky and the Cloud

They're meant to be together forever.


The Rain and the Storm

They come together, never to be separated.




Those happy memories were all in the past. The current time does not consist of the past.
What you think is the truth, is actually a dream. You are living in deception.

Gaaahhh... I decided to say something profound (thanks to my mediation)! Wanna quote? LOL.

Becoming more of a narcissist...
Aiya but my sister worse.

Sick of looking at the computer screen. I want to go now.

But one last word - If you have any troubles, I'm always there to help you.
I'm more than happy to help you solve your problems, especially friendship problems.
Don't forget I'm a living person with feelings too.

If you feel bad, I'll feel bad too.

See you~