The Dark Angel
Umm, hi.
I know I'm not your idea of a typical 14-year-old girl. My birthday's on 9th February, and I happen to like that date a lot. I share my birthday & birthday month with very awesome people.
I have a thing for heavy music, I love J-Rock and heavy metal. I adore the Visual Kei scene.
I'm an otaku. I spend my days rotting at the computer gawking at anime, manga, music and whatnot.
I'm weird. I tend to like dark and depressing things. It doesn't make me emo or suicidal. People do have their dark moments.
If you're easily offended by gay things, this might not be the right place for you. I love yaoi and you can't change that.
Interesting guitar riffs and shredding are my weakness. You might think guitar's my specialty, but it isn't. I do play acoustic and electric guitar, but piano's what I major in. I play the Guzheng a little too.
And that's about all I have to say about me.
傷付けた後でしか 気付けなかった事
過ちの数 君を求め 見め合えたはずさ I only realized after hurting you, that I was counting the number of flaws you had when we should have looked at each other.
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This girl is forever random. She might sometimes suffer from moodswings, but most of the time she's feeling... happy? I don't know.
She likes to be called goth and not emo.
She is all for gay.
She has somehow developed a glasses fetish from staring at the picture up there.
When she's feeling sad, she'll go ranting about things and sound like a philosopher.
She is a narcissist.
Red, black and purple are the colours to describe her mood.
I have given up on designing my own skins, so a big thank you to the designer! =D Hearts!
Monday, February 28, 2011
-Isogashii, isogashii.- 10:14 PM
No shit. I'm as busy as a bee.
No, maybe busier than a bee.
Work is piling up.
Choir, PSL events (PSGM etc.), performance tasks, presentations, common tests, guitar competition, guitar performance, piano exam, overdue homework, Japanese study, IPW, CIP, what else?
I love my life partly, because of the interesting things I get to do, pleasant friends or juniors I get to know, useful experience I gain as well as the chance to unwind with some form of entertainment (music!).
I also hate my life for the amount of stress it gives me. I hate that I completely do not have enough time to do all of these. Unnecessary workload. My sleeping time has been reduced from 9 hours to 6 hours. What is this.
But I guess I have myself to blame. I brought it upon myself.
I made the choices, all these important decisions.
It was my choice to learn the piano.
To pick up electric guitar.
To study Japanese.
To join choir.
To do IJ choir CIP.
They are my interests, so I will not complain.
I will instead be grateful, and continue to give thanks and praise to God.
The One who guided me through tough times in my life, times when I felt like breaking down.
Thank you for the insight that I've gained through my secondary school life in Cedar.
It was the right choice that I've made, and now the path of my life seems more clear.
Thank you Lord, I have become wiser over the past year.
Note to self:
Going online every single day does not really help to relief the workload, but I guess I'll do it anyway.
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
-Infection.- 9:58 PM
Can't breathe, can't think, can't see, can't speak.
Thump, thump-a-thump, thump.
"Close your eyes"
I don't regret dying for you.
Sunday, February 13, 2011
-A Breaking World- 12:36 AM
Because it's white, it's said it wants to be white Because it's white, something can be blended in The water in a little bowl became clear Little by little the colours faded away
Eventually humans corrupt Humans can be discolored by other humans This star they both live on together is discolored They strangle themselves
How do you describe the time when the trees coldly looked up at the building that towers above?
The earth is touched by a bloodied hand Without kindness, flowers withered and died And by that hand, which has no heart, the future without sins is murdered
Eventually humans corrupt Humans can be discolored by other humans This star they both live on together is discolored They strangle themselves
In this civilization what sort of life do you picture is the one we wanted? In this selfish egotistical struggle What was shed was not blood, but the tears of the planet The Earth, born so billions of years ago The proportion of time we've been in existence is just a few seconds We have not aided in the recovery of the planet We have not lived our lives in order to help the earth However, we alone have known an unblemished love
The End is near by, but you who have known love will be all right
Saturday, February 12, 2011
-Shining- 12:03 AM
Life is not just our possession, forgetting things which we rely on A time when obvious things you need for a living have become useless
Since you can’t see tomorrow, make it
I wonder if you’re listening Even if you’re about to lose courage I wonder if you’re listening It’s all right, since I’m here
There’s no need in rusty words or attitude I just want to be sure about the deal we drew together
In this broken times, scream strongly
I wonder if you’re listening I want to express this feeling I wonder if you’re listening Now, does this reach your heart?
This scene in front of you burnt into your eyes The joy of things you believed in This scene in front of you burnt into your eyes Being saved makes your stronger
I wonder if you’re listening I want to express this feeling I wonder if you’re listening Thanks from the bottom of the heart I wonder if you’re listening Even if you’re about to lose courage I wonder if you’re listening It’s all right, since I’m here.
Friday, February 4, 2011
-New Year Resolutions- 11:02 PM
I realize I haven't posted my New Year's Resolutions.
And now happens to be a great time to post them.
Though it'd be more like CHINESE New Year Resolutions.
Oh, whatever.
1. To learn how to play Deluhi's S[k]ape:goat. This one is number one because I want to learn it REAL BAD. I shall attach a video I use.
2. Be an AWESOME senior.
I shall work hard at being enthusiastic, replying my juniors, answer their queries etc.
And to STOP being so emo (mission impossible).
3. Learn how to restring a FLOYD ROSE guitar.
Yes, a normal electric guitar is chicken. Did it with Joey the other day, it was slightly troublesome, but fun with two people :D
Floyd Rose bridge is completely different, and that's what I have on my guitar. Floating bridges are a nightmare to restring, but they play like a dream XD
Price to pay for something good. T_T
4. Lose weight.
ZOMG. This is important, like really.
I must stop guzzling down food like some deprived guy = ="
Exercise more!! Like I have the time.
Oh well, I do pray that I lose weight, and no, Prednisolone is not going to help me.
I hate Eczema for making me have to take medication which makes me gain weight. D:
Glad I stopped the medication, but now, the condition is getting really serious again. Shit.
Now time for some other stuff.
I AM DAMN GLAD I FINALLY FOUND OUT WHAT RENO'S GUITAR WAS.
Well, it's obviously custom-made, but then I realized it wasn't an ESP Horizon.
So earlier today I checked the Ibanez website, because I saw on the head of his guitar something which looked like Ibanez. I checked the artist listing, and sure enough, there he was!
OMG I was damn happy LOL.
But then again, it was a little bit disappointing to find out that it's pretty much fully customized, and there's no signature guitar line for it. *sadded*
I wanna get a guitar like his.
Red, flower inlays on fretboard, double humbuckers (with coil split settings), Floyd Rose bridge *_*
Ahh. I take that back, J-Custom is for the Japanese market. But it's a limited line T_T
I WANT TO GET THAT AWESOME GUITAR. DX
I shall work hard finding a guitar similar to that, and it shall be subject to my down-tuning! Whooo. Maybe I'd get a different bridge, not a Floyd Rose? :O
I shall end off here.
AHH I LOOK FORWARD TO ME BIRTHDAY.
AND THE BIRTHDAYS OF ALL THE JROCKERS/AWESOME MUSICIANS IN FEBRUARY.
RIP The Rev!
Bye~~
That's his guitar. Ahhh D: Click to enlarge and see the flower fretboard :)
Thursday, February 3, 2011
-Just for you :)- 10:23 PM
I don't know if you're reading this, dear.
Yes, you.
This post shall be for you :)
Because I haven't mentioned you at all.
And I haven't blogged in ages.
You're a really sweet junior, did you know that.
You're really cute too :D
I mean what I say to you, they're not the least bit superficial.
Well, there's just this thing which strikes something in us?
Yeah we both wish we were classmates don't we?
However, maybe God made us senior and junior.
And I think I like it just as much this way, even if it means more loneliness for us.
Well, it has become my responsibility to take care of you, show you the ropes, talk to you, and finally become a big sister to someone.
I'm always spoiled and pampered. Hehe.
Well, I feel great that you're a really understanding person, and you can relate to my feelings.
And it seems that we both share some quirks and bad habits too :X
Glad you are someone who can appreciate what I like, without all the teasing and annoying comments :)
You are the most awesome junior I ever had, you're my favourite and always will be.
In primary school, the juniors are all immature and oblivious.
Cheeeeeeeeeer up.
Don't break my record of being emo.
In fact, when I'm depressed, my hyper-ness makes up for it haha :D
Remember to be enthusiastic okay ;)
And don't guzzle down all the chocolate. I know you love it XD
I think finding a good friend through your CCA is great though.
Haha I'm already thinking Cephy is a very pleasant girl.
Jiayou, make awesome friends okay!
Sorry I'm always unable to SMS you.
I really appreciate all the SMSes you send me.
They made me really happy.
YOU make me happy.
You brighten up my life by loads, and I'm really thankful for a junior like you.
Don't ever think I'll find you annoying.
I might be busy, but it doesn't hurt to just sit back, relax and listen to you :)
And trust me on the fact that I will always support you, and never betray you.
Cheers!
Love you as the most awesome junior and friend. X3
